With your thoughts, with your feelings, with yourself… You are alone.
You are always alone, and that person who you are or who you strive to be is who you will always be with. There is very little, if anything, that you can do on that front my friend, it is how it is.
When you don’t want any company and all you feel like is binge-watching TV shows on Netflix, that seems perfectly fine. But what when you need someone to tell you your art is amazing, that your voice is incredible and that you are talented motherfucker able to slay every path you wonder on?
You might think that you don’t need anyone, but everyone needs someone, it’s the law, nature’s way of keeping us all in line, cuz it’s easier to follow a pair or a group a people then every individual. It’s just basic math and a game of divide and conquer.
You need someone to wipe your tears when you fail to get into the university you always dreamed of or someone to celebrate your first win at a contest… someone who you can talk to in the middle of the night, just for no reason what so ever. You need someone to take care of you and to look out for you every once in a while.
Keeping things for yourself is like filling a balloon, at some point, it is bound to burst, and that is why we who have people in our lives are privileged to have them.. It’s not easy waking up alone every day, eating by yourself, working alone from home, even though that is the situation most introverts like myself dream of.
I dream of making writing a career and staying home all the time and not having to go outside unless utterly necessary, but I need to. There are so many things to see, so many things to do, and sure you can do them as a single unit, but it is much better at times when you have some company.
It is possible to be alone in your mind. You can be alone in your room, doing the things you like, things that keep you energized and hopeful for the future. You can replenish your energy, but in the end, someone needs to look after you, someone needs to know who you are so your soul doesn’t get into a line for recycling, you want to succeed in your first try in making your life count…
We can function, but the question for both of us is, how long?