So, like every aspiring writer who hears about Camp Nano for the first time, I was super pumped to begin the journey, hoping and believing with all of my beingย that THAT will propel me towards writing on a more regular basis, as opposed to pantsing and writing once every blue moon strikes.

I had set myself a goal of 25k words until the end of the month, knowing that I have three big exams and two smaller ones in the month of April, that I am almost working full time and that I can write exclusively after my classes and before my shift, which is about, let’s say, two hours a day.

I had already planned out going to different coffee shops, going to the library, going to the park etc etc and just writing whatever and however I can. I knew it would be difficult to follow this plan because, I know me, and also because of my workload.

But, I was determined.

And on the first day, I wrote an astounding 2500 words, in about an hour and a half, probably two hours, after I came home from my shift on the 31st, which was technically the first of April by then. I wanted so bad to get a head start and just force myself into that mindset that I have a goal to accomplish and that it needed to be done.

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The next day I wrote about 600 words and I thought to myself, great! I am more than enough in front of the schedule, I can take a couple of days off to go running in the morning, try to study for my mid-terms and what not.

And here we are, the 10th of April and that manuscript still sits at 3k words.

I have not written a single word for that story in 8 fucking days! And I feel horrible.

I keep saying to myself that after I finish with my bigger exam on the 15th I will get my ass in front of my keyboard and type until my fingers bleed, but I feel like I am probably deluding myself.ย  I had such high hopes and dreams and they literally fell apart after Day 2. Day freaking 2!

From this perspective I know I can force myself to write 22k words in 15 days. I mean I have never done it before, but the determination to succeed is bound to kick in at some point! Right? RIGHT?!?

And not getting the vacation days I asked for to study for my exams didn’t help either. I am overworked, my brain is scrambled from being in the books for literally an entire century, and my creativity is dead.

I don’t know, I think I just need a realiti check.

(and definitely, give camp another try in July!)

 


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10 Replies to “My Camp NaNoWriMo ideal plan vs what is really happening

  1. You must take a deep breath! ๐Ÿ˜€ I did Nano a couple years ago, and although I met the goal, I was so exhausted by the end that I got the flu and was run down for months. Learned my lesson! Now, I give myself little self-imposed Nanos throughout the year when the timing is right and I know I can carve out the time and commit to a goal. It works much better. You’ll find what works for you, but there’s no need to put tons of pressure on yourself. Writing is supposed to be fun and rewarding and creative. You’re in it for the long haul. Hope this helps. ๐Ÿ™‚

    1. Thank you so much!
      It’s a vicious cycle this writing thing lol I do it for fun but I also want it to be good and I really do want to write but I REALLY don’t at the same time. I still have a lot of figuring out to do in that department I guess ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. I am having the exact same problem right now. I just have less of an excuse though! Good luck with your exams and good luck with Camp! It can be very daunting on your first go so donโ€™t beat yourself up too much!

  3. Realiti check, indeed! Here’s one for you: Maybe you should consider cutting yourself some slack given all you have going on and defer your NaNoWriMo plans ’til next year?

    1. I know I should but there is this voice inside my head saying “You can do better, you are better” and that’s why I push myself. On top of that I am generally a very lazy person and unless I am under immense pressure I don’t do anything, so I hoped that would work, but we will see until the end of April xD
      Thanks for reading, as always ๐Ÿ™‚

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